Have you ever wished you lived your life different then you do...

[Patrucci]

.. now?

I know I'm still young, but I feel i've wasted it. My Dad raised me and my older brother from babies, my Mother fucked off to Las Vegas with an old rich guy, tried to bag him. 10 years later, he came around his senses, and left her. I always thought I was close to my Mother, but I realized I wasn't. And I didn't want to be.

My Dad's health has been fuck since he was about 20, before I was born, he crushed his spleen in a rodeo. After then everything has been downhill, his pancreas was almost fully removed, now he's diabetic, his feet and legs are super bad. He's had hernias, alchohol and painkiller addiction, a heart attack at 39, and many other problems.

How did this make me feel I've wasted my life?

I'm a prick. My grandmother drives me in-fucking-sane. Her and my grandfather have been there for me, when my Dad was in the hospital and rehab. But she makes me so mad, that I wish I was the one in the hospital.

I've always fought with my brother, and felt that I've hated him. But I do love him. It has been physical too before, nothing really bad, just a few scraps and shit.

And my Dad, the person who raised me my whole life, my hero. I've been fighting a lot with him lately. And it's been making me paranoid, because when we are on good grounds, we just hang out, watch some tv and stuff. But then he says I can go on my laptop or whatever, and I want to. But I feel that it hurts him when I do. But he insists that it doesn't.

So I question him if it makes him feel bad, he says it doesn't. But I still insist that it does. I just don't let him know. And when he does, It makes him mad. Because it's almost like putting words in his mouth. And he has high blood pressure, so it goes even higher, because he needs to be in a stress free environment.

And I feel that I make it worse, so I want to spend time with him, but he says I can go on my laptop, then we argue again, because I think he doesn't want me to go, and he's just saying that to make me feel better.

I just need some shit to reduce stress..

And that is why I wish I lived my life different then I do.
What about you?

[Legham]

Im content with my life.

[Slim Trashman]

Going to move this to Free Your Mind.

I'd say I too am content with my life. Although I do often wonder how my life could have turned out differently based on random decisions.

Quick example, if I hadn't been introduced to GTA when I was, or if I hadn't been restricted to play it by my parents when I was as young as I was, I don't believe I would have ended up here at GTAGaming. If I had never found my way here, there is an incredible amount of things I would not have learned, most important to me being acquiring skills with Photoshop. I'm currently seeking out schools to go to for graphic and other multimedia design. If I hadn't learned these things, I have NO idea what I would plan on majoring in college, or what sort of career I'd end up looking into.

Anyway, I would probably like to be as social and outgoing as I used to, but over the past couple years I've drifted away from it. Problem with being more social at this point in my life is that hanging out with people I used to hang out with would involve going against my own morals (I don't do stupid and/or illegal things). Really, I guess I don't blame myself for being less social than I used to be.

[Cutts]

I wish i'd gone out more with my friends. I spent most of my early teenage years either sitting in front of the computer screen or in front of the tv screen. My stepdad at the time always used to try and get me outside, saying "you'll regret not going out with your mates when your older". 4 years later, and he was bladdy right. I gained weight, lost some friends and the ones I didn't lose were pissed off at me. I'll blame some of these situations on my mother, simply because she's very over-protective and unwilling to let me have a life. It's hard to keep a social life and deal with your family at the same time, and at some points I was juggling the same shit in two different toilets. Now I love ages away from where all my mates, but I still go out more than I used to. God, I just wish I could spend more time with my mates. With finishing school the day before yesterday it's really hit home how much I really on my best mates at some points. They always ask me to come down because i'm their mate and I completely blow them off. It makes me feel like a twat. Anyway, /life.

[Ash_735]

Only two points in my life where I wish I made the complete opposite choices. Everything else is fine by me.

[Patrucci]

You aren't going to share those points, are you?

[Ash_735]

Nope.

[Patrucci]

Good, I believe it is best to keep things personal sometimes.

[Piggus]

There are definitely points in my life I look back on and wish I could go back and handle things differently or change what I did. But you only have one chance, and if you fuck up then all you can do is do your best to make things better. I'm not the kind of person who just gives up on a situation when I know there's potential for something better.

[JRussell89]

At this point in my life I have made peace with myself about bad choices I have made. For a long time, I beat myself up about how my life was and the things that had happened to me. I had a life changing experience (that some of you may remember from another thread) and I started to identify and focus on the things that make my life great. Look P, I don't know how old you are bro. Just let things sort themselves out. In time, you'll see that you are a better person from having to go through the shit you have. it is important that you learn from it and help people that you see going through the same stuff. You have to be at peace with yourself first.:)

[Tyler]

I've been dating my girlfriend for nine months now.
and she hates my 'ex'.
AKA a girl i used to talk to, like TALK to.
I still talk to this girl from time to time, but my girlfriend dont know.

What would it be like, if i didnt date my girlfriend.
Would i be with this girl, would i even meet my girlfriend,
would i even be talking to the girl still?
Its crazy.

[Holster]

I'm happy with my life, but wish I would have more confidence with stuff, and all the time now I just have negative thoughts about stuff and it annoys me cos I can't shut away from them.
It's like especially at night for some reason, when I go to bed I feel like I can't get enough air and panic, I did actually go to the doctor about this like a year ago, he said it's nothing to worry about cos it's called 'Excessive Breathing', it's just in your mind.. but I still worry about it! So annoying.
And as for the negative thoughts, for example, I can't stand my mum going to the corner shop and I clockwatch, not in a controlling way I don't want to control her, I just worry about stuff like if there's dodgy people about and just shit you hear on the news sticks with me. I've always worried a lot but I think it's got worse since my dad's death in December '07, it just kind of made me realise anything can happen, so I worry loads more and especially with my mum cos we're really close, and she's my only parent now.
I do wish I was more social and outgoing, but it kind of links in with my confidence a bit, and I have a phobia of vomiting so I'm scared to go to other people's houses, so I've refused a lot of sleepovers with my best mates which I feel bad about.. =/

Ahh, glad to get that off my back.

[.:Mouldy Punk:.]

I'm happy with my life. Yeah, it's not perfect, yeah there are some things I'd do differently if I had the chance, but it could be a lot worse. All I focus on now is what I'm doing now to make sure I want to be where I want to be. Whether that's my career, passing exams or just getting the girl. If there's something about me I don't like, I work to change it.

For example; As I said in another forum, I used to be quite shy and lacked confidence. I've worked on that and while I still get anxious in some social situations, I just battle on through it and don't let it affect me.

Now one of my current goals is to get back into shape. I use to do a lot of mountain biking and was actually quite healthy despite the crap I ate. Since uni, I've been eating the same ol' crap, drinking more and doing a lot less exercise. I might look exactly the same shape, but I'm so unfit on the inside it's ridiculous. So now I'm working on my fitness, eating healthily (read, high energy, not rabbit food) and work out more.


One of the main things I wish I'd worked out long before I did was, if you don't like something, change it - don't just put up with it or complain.

[WiM]

You know, I'm actually quitte happy with who I am. Although it hasn't been easy.

I was always bullied in elementary, for several reasons. Including my weight, height, my religion and the fact that I was so shy. I was shy because I was afraid to be bullied even more. I couldn't develope like a normal child would.

First year of high school was that same, second year, though, changed everything. Suddenly the bullying had stopped, I got girlfriends and learned more about life. And I grew and got skinny.
I was a different boy, all of a sudden. The third year was a disaster. I neglected my school work and hung around with the wrong people. I started drinking, smoking and using weed. I had to do my third year over.
That second time I had to do my third year was horrible. So many bad things happened. I'm not going to ecplain everything, but I got kicked out of school, for instance, and I broke down. I was an emotional wreck. I couldn't even go to school any more.

So I had to do my third year over again, AGAIN. Yes, I did it three times.
Fortunately, now I got away from my "friends" who had such a bad influence and I realised I hadn't been myself the past two years. I learned to handle life and that's when I grew up.

Two years have passed since and I feel just fine. It might sound strange, but I'm proud of my past. I regret nothing, for all that I have done in the past has made me who I am today.

Although... I DO wonder how my life would've been right now if I lived it differently.

[zombienm]

I am perfectly happy with my life. I wouldn't change a single thing from my past. Everything bad that happened had some sort of effect on how my life is now, and I love my life, so why risk changing that?

[Kodo]

I've had my problems before I knew the deeper dimensions of life, but now I have worked through most of my issues and learned how to love it. Now it's just easier and everything works out for the best. In the past year, I have been walking the spiritual path and life has changed exponentially. Every day, the experience of life goes deeper. Every day I try to have new experiences and grow a little more, understand a little more, create a little more love in the world. I appreciate every breath and every opportunity to love. I'm grateful for all of my blessings, the interesting people I meet, and the adventure of the unknown. Everything in my past played a role in getting me here and making me who I am, so there is nothing that can be changed.

All that said, I wanted to play soccer in high school but never had the courage to listen to my heart.

[Ultraussie]

Im content with my life.
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Seriously.
Back on topic.
I wish I have never seen or heard of a computer.
Why?
Because Im addicted too it now.
Also, I wish I was born a girl.
Being a guy is hard. You can only cum once every 45 minutes.
Girls? Twice every 20 seconds.

[flint.44]

There are a couple things that I wished I had changed, but one must work past these ill decisions instead of dwelling on them.