Life

[EMT]

Hey guys. I just wanted to share with you a little something, maybe boost your confidence up? Or put a smile on your face? I don't know!:P I am here to tell you just a little something, and I feel like sharing it now. Just because of something i recently have gone through. I don't want to go into details but I got in trouble by the cops. I guess you could say I didn't do anything illegal... I just scared a lot of people. I don't want to sit here and type all day about this because its done and over with, but I just want to share with you how fast things can change. I am also not going to tell my life story on here because I know there's at least 5 people out there waiting to flame me about you know... problems... and I know the internet is not a place to talk about your problems. I have learned this!!! ;)

Let me just tell you I have an anxiety disorder. I wont go into detail, but I have passed out at school 5 times and been made fun of for it. That's actually how I got on the fire Department! I met the captain there when i fell to the ground the fire department was called out. I soon joined them because it looked really bad ass and fun to do! Besides the fact I love to help people, even though I get treated like an ass in return. I want to let you guys know, I was a NOBODY. Fuck... I had no friends... I used to go to school... Heart racing 100 MPH, because people would always give me shit. I even got this class clown to fight with me. He got mad at me for talking to his "girl" when I finally got enough courage to go up to a girl and start a conversation. He told me to meet him outside. I did... and I remember what my dad taught me. I didn't do a thing, but he laid a finger on me and I felt threatened. I wasn't going to let some idiot push me around like that. So I beat the living piss out of him. My police and Fire buddies know about this.... Nobody is perfect!

Ughh... Im going on with the life story thing. This is what I came here to say.

No matter where you are at in life right now. It can change. For the better or the worse. I hope it is for the better. I have learned there is a way to change it for the better. Of course there will always be things that will happen in life that will HURT LIKE A MO FO. Trust me... Been dealing with it for 15 years... but look...
I went froma nobody.... To a fire fighter... To a guy who has two of the best friends he could ever ask for. To a guy who has the whole police department love him for who he is, I have a cop buddy that teaches me everything. Not all cops are assholes. Its not like GTA 4! haha :)

Basically guys? Hang in there. Because I can assure you. If you WANT change? You will get Change :)
Thats all I wanted to say :)

[flint.44]

How thoughtful. For the longest time, I didn't have any friends either.

[devil chevelle]

mmmm interesting i could post some stuff on here but it would probably get me emotional and i dont like to get like that.but for the anxiety disorder thing i can relate they diagnosed me at 14 tried to get me on meds cus i wouldent go to sleep for two days sometimes i didnt take the meds for the longest time cus im stubborn that way, school was always hard for me never passed out but i would be freakin out hard in class sometimes and just ditch school and buy weed or try to play hardcore video games to get my mind off of things. as for the friends thing i went through some and have made some was kind of popular in high school but for the wrong things most people would consider me a downer but that was mostly because i was with my abusive father all the time and i would see him and be pissed off for months and that would show in my personality so a lot of people didnt want to be around me, but luckily now i dont see him and i can say been a lot happier.as for everything else since then it has been ok wish things would hurry up i dont have a lot of patience and waiting for things to change when i try pretty hard gets me extremely frustrated